My prayer request is twofold.
First off, I'm not sure why, but I believe I am being spiritually attacked in regards to the relationship I have with my boyfriend. We have been officially together for little over a month now. He is very strongly Christian, grew up in a Christian family and has told me and demonstrated to me that he loves God more than me (which is very important), and I love Jesus more than him. We both want to do things the right way, with God at the center and being the foundation of our relationship.
The problem is, lately I've been getting mental suggestions to leave him, even though thus far there hasn't been anything overly wrong happening (I.E. no sin to justify this that hasn't already been repented of). The thing is, I'm not sure whether it's the Holy Spirit suggesting this (which really makes no sense, given what I have described to you guys above) or whether this is the attack of the devil, because he sees that this can only make my relationship with God stronger (which makes tons more logical sense, but there's always that annoying nagging feeling). Truth is, part of me is terrified that God wants me to leave him for some reason, which on top of making NO SENSE WHATSOEVER also makes me scared that if God really is asking me to leave, that I may be too selfish to obey Him, and I really want to obey God. So could you please pray for me, both for spiritual discernment and for whatever this is (if it is not of the Holy Spirit) to LEAVE ME ALONE? I have already sought the council of two Godly women in my life, both of whom do not believe I should leave the relationship, and I have sought out the Word of God, but thus far the only word I have received is to be patient. I will be, but it is hard when whatever this is keeps nagging and nagging and nagging for hours on end. >_<
Secondly, right now my church is going through spiritual attack like you would not believe. 0_0 Like seriously, it is at RIDICULOUS levels. Within the last few weeks we have, in order:
A) A well-respected pastor at our church being unexpectedly let go for no real justifiable reason by the Head Pastor and the church staff, thereby knocking off the city's only Christian counsellor.
B) Our Children's Pastor and most of his family being killed in a very bad highway accident last week (a man whom I and many of my friends have worked with). Needless to say, our entire church was devastated.
C) An incident occurring just a week after the crash that was potentially demonic in nature and involved two members of our church being admitted into the local psych ward.
Clearly, my church needs prayer right now.
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Just...I'm sorry for the near novel-length post, but I really, really need to share this with someone. I am so beyond exhausted in all areas of my life; spiritually, emotionally, mentally and physically. I feel discouraged, heartbroken, scared and wearied. It has been one VERY long and rough week, and my emotions, normally very stable, have been going to all ends of the spectrum. I just really need prayer right now, and the acknowledgement that God is here, even in the midst of all this, that He has already won the battle against the devil for all time at Calvary, and that things may seem rough now, but God will lead all of us through it. So PLEASE, PLEASE PRAY.