Week 1:I open with a loss, but it actually feels like a moral victory.
The season hadn't even started yet and I was absolutely beating myself up for not trusting my gut. I thought I really blew it and had tanked myself from the get go. The reason for such strong self chastisement? A few weeks prior I had been one click away from changing Bell from my #1 draft rank to #2 instead. One click. I had made the swap, but I talked myself out of pressing save. I really wanted to. I had an unshakable feeling in my gut that Bell was trouble. I had remembered how his contract dispute last season almost resulted in missing games and for some reason I had a distinct feeling that this year it actually would. But I said if there was genuine danger of that happening surely someone somewhere would be mentioning it. You would think certainly in a fantasy football outlook, but even just in general football news since it would be such a significant event. But no preseason preview I saw ever mentioned possibility of a real holdout, so I kept him at #1. I ended up picking first so I got him, and I celebrated. Then throughout the last week everything came abruptly crashing down. My gut had been right and I could have,
should have avoided all of this mess. I was extremely upset with myself. I managed to make adequate adjustments as the situation unfolded so it didn't significantly burn me in the end, but I was mad that I had to deal with it at all.
Oh, and I didn't mention that right as the Bell thing blew up I was still reeling from just losing McKinnon for the season from a sudden injury. Literally overnight I went from being set for the long term at RB to losing
both superstars I had. Then to add insult to injury, as I examined my options for reacting to these losses I learned that the rookie RB in Seattle that autodraft had made sure to spend a pick on because he was at the time being universally hailed as having incredible promise and being the next big thing about to burst onto the scene had actually turned out to be an absolute bust in the preseason and wasn't even going to be their starting back! I was
not happy. I thought I would be playing from behind for a good several weeks to start the season. Everything I had felt good about was now crumbling and needed completely rethought.
But I managed to snag Bell's replacement to swap in there, made some other adjustments to address the other needs, and Bell was
finally officially declared inactive at just about the last minute Sunday morning so I was able to move him to IR and use the roster spot for an additional pickup for compensation. Conner did great for me and Evans unexpectedly blew up, so I ended up doing pretty well despite shockingly low scores from some other positions which were completely unexpected. It turned out I actually could have had a chance at competing but for any pick of specific events that transpired. If Rodgers hadn't missed part of his game with that injury (though when that happend my fantasy team was the last thing on my mind!), if just one of the players that unexpectedly busted this week had hit anywhere close to their projection, if Baldwin hadn't exited with an injury before he could put anything on the board, or if Eugene's WR hadn't suddenly gone absolutely insane in his game, I would have been right in there this week. I might have still lost, but it would have been a great close match. After everything that had been going wrong leading into this matchup, none of that was actually why I lost it, it was other things. Things out of the ordinary and out of my control. Things I couldn't have prepared for any better than I did. So yes it's a loss, but it doesn't really feel like one. All I wanted was to put up a decent showing this week, to assure myself I was able to adjust well enough after losing McKinnon and Bell to still have a competitive team, and I definitely did that. I'm content enough and looking onward to week two.